Zachary Zimmerman's Memorial

Submitted By: Annette Zimmerman

Candles Lit: 346

About Zachary Zimmerman

Zachary Michael Hamilton Zimmerman

Miscarried at 14.5 weeks.

Zachary Zimmerman's Legacy

ZACHARY MICHAEL HAMILTON ZIMMERMAN

Time please stop; don’t go on, because I can’t forget
My precious Son, I carried 14 weeks, but we never met.

My precious baby boy, your face I will never see
And will forever mourn a future that will never be

How my heart aches, how it is broken in two
To never had an opportunity to kiss or to hold you

To have to accept, I’ll never see you run, I’ll never hear you cry, is too much pain to bare
To never hear you say “I love you, Mama” seems so unfair.

Your last ultrasound picture you were sleeping but finally raised your hand to say hi
Little did I know you were preparing me, you really were waving goodbye.

A few weeks later, you left this world, and Jesus took you by the hand
He held you in His arms, as you met Mama’s sisters and brother in the Promise Land.

My precious baby you grew angel wings and to Heaven you flew away
Please know I wanted you, I loved you, and a part of me died with you that day.

It doesn’t matter how far along I was, I loved you with every ounce of my being
And for the world to imply your short life was meaningless, is actually very demeaning.

Because a Mother loves her child from the moment that child is conceived
I will not justify my pain to the world, nor put a time limit on my grief.

Don’t minimize my loss, don’t pretend my child didn’t exist
Just because it makes people feel awkward because they are simple enough to only consider him a “fetus”

Though he was very small, My Son was a fully formed baby, my Mother held him in her hand
How do words articulate that pain, only someone who has walked in my shoes, could possibly understand.

Only a Mother with empty arms could understand this pain
To wonder about what ifs, what could have been, and to carry the burden of blame.

To walk through life feeling as though you failed your child in some way
Even though, it isn’t your fault, there will be a hole in your heart for the rest of your days.

So I went alone to the funeral home to sign papers to cremate your remains
To finally give you the honor and respect you deserve, and to give you a legal name.

Your Sister named you Zachary Michael from the first day that she knew
She had prayed every night for months that Jesus would send us you.

So when she asks “Mommy, why isn’t there a baby in your belly anymore, why did Jesus take him away”?
I tell her how special Zachary was, and how much Jesus needed him, but we’ll see him in Heaven, someday.

Oh God, my God, hear my cries, please Holy Spirit intercede
Please, oh Father, pour out your tender mercy on me.

Why does my life seem so hard, a new challenge everyday
And to make it even worse, you took my baby away.

I’ve never questioned you; I’ve always accepted Your will in my life
No matter how much hurt, tragedy, or strife.

How can I believe that You are loving and kind?
Although, I know Your truth in my heart, it doesn’t seem so in my mind.

I know my pain can’t compare to the pain you felt when You sent Your Son to die for my sins
But You loved us so much that you gave Him up, and He paid the price that will allow me to see my son again.

As much as I try to find comfort in Your truth and the message You have told
I am so broken with such a deep sorrow and I can’t say it is well with my soul.

Oh God, my God, my Comforter, help me, I feel so lost
Help me cling to Your truth, and to that Old Rugged Cross.

I find comfort in the hymn of how Your grace has set me free
And I know with Your grace, I’ll persevere, because “I Believe in a Hill Called Mt. Calvary”

As I have walked through the lowest period of my life it has been my heavenly Father who has kept me sane
He picked me up when I was at my lowest, and gave me a will and a longing to trust in Him again.


So to Him, I pray for strength as I walk through this heart wrenching day
As I remember a life cut short and bring honor to my Son, Zachary Michael, on what was supposed to be his birth day!