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Harley Walls's Memorial
Submitted By: Beverly Walls Johns
- Birth Date:
- Dec 22, 1982
- Death Date:
- Feb 08, 2004
- City:
- Middleburg
- State:
- Florida
- Country:
- United States
About Harley Walls
This memorial web site was created in memory of our loved one, Harley Scott Walls "H" who was born on December 22, 1982 & passed away on February 8, 2004 at the age of 21, due to a car accident. Harley was born in Jacksonville, Fl. & grew up in Middleburg, Fl. just outside of Jacksonville.
Harley graduated from Middleburg High "Class of 2001."
Harley is the oldest of 3 children & it took me a long time to get pregnant with him, Harley was my Christmas present. I was the proudest & happiest Mother in the world. I had Harley for 2 years then , he had a baby brother to play with, 1 year later, a baby sister. I was happy & content, it took me so long to have babies, & now I had 3. From the time Harley was born, till the time he passed away, Harley was a good natured young man with an awesome personality & a big, beautiful smile.
Harley & his brother , Johnny were full of energy & like all boys, would ride bikes, camp out in the woods & build forts with their mutual friends. I would let the friends spend the weekend & at one time their were 7- 8 boys running around & wrestling in the bedrooms I would have to holler at them to settle down or they would have to go home,the teen years got here & their were holes in the walls from wrestling, so Harley would just cover up the holes with posters, the room still looks the same, I can't bear to change it, even Harley's old duct-tape shoes are here.
A part of me feels like he is visiting someone & I'm waiting for him to come home, I know what's real, but I still feel this way."The worse loss in Life is the loss of a child." I'm the parent, I should go first, we as parent's don't expect to outlive our child, it shouldn't be that way .Mother's spend 10 months getting ready for the birth of their child,we gave birth to this child, we love, nuture, & protect are child & then something like this happens, I held my Son's lifeless body in my arms & I felt like my Heart was ripped out & stomped on, I ask "Why.
I did not even see Harley on an ER bed, I had to see him in a cold hospital morgue, when I held my child's lifeless body in my arms I wanted to die with him, if given a choice I would have taken his place, Harley's life was just beginning & had so much to give, he made an impact on a lot of people's lives.He always had a smile on his face & he could make you laugh, & was fun to be around, he was laid back & just wanted to be happy. If help was needed, Harley was there.
Whenever one of their friends wanted to know what was going on that day or night, where to go, what to do, they would call Harley on his cell phone, that phone meant everything to Harley no matter what, I would always get on to him about the bill being so high, Harley went through a lot of phones, due to being careless with them,so one time when he bought another phone there were some real samples, but you could not activate them he just wanted one.
The night of the accident Harley had his phone with him, but it was nowhere to be found, Harley always wore a hat & looked mighty handsome in it, so at the funeral service, I put his hat on & opened his hand & placed the phone that he took from the Nextel store in his hand, that way Harley would forever has his phone with him.
Harley & Johnny shared a close relationship with all of their mutual friends, going to the beach together, partying together & just hanging out with each other, all of these boys would do anything for one another, that's just how tight they were. They were always there for each other.A part of all of us died the night Harley died. Harley & Johnny weren't just Brothers, they were "Best Friends" where one was , the other was right there, these two Brothers would back each other up no matter what.
My two Son's & four of their Friends were headed to Fort Stewart, Ga to bring a Friend his duffle bag, Mike was getting ready to deploy to Iraq, they only had one more exit to go & then a terrible tragic accident.
Shelia had broken bones, the car was on top of Drew, now paralized for life, James had messed up shoulder, Jason had minor injuries, Johnny with a messed up knee sobbing uncontrollaby because Harley had died in minutes from head trauma, that was the night our lives have forever changed, my children are the most important part of my life, & to lose a child is just devastating, my life can never be the same, I will always have a hole in my Heart that can never be mended, our family will never be as we knew it, because Harley is not here with us.
Since the day Johnny was born, Harley has never been away from Johnny, they shared the same room for till Johnny was 14 and were as close as any two Brother's could be.
My Heart is breaking for Johnny as he is hurting and in so much pain, a part of him also died when Harley died, these two Brother's shared a love for each other that I will never see again.
Harley Walls's Legacy
Anyone that ever knew Harley, knew how great of a guy he was. And he was quite the lady's man. But Harley knew how to have fun. Whether we were sitting in a garage, outsde by a fire, or just driving around, he found a way to entertain you. He laughed, when you laughed. And you always wanted him around because he could make you laugh no matter what and he was awesome to hang out with. He made you feel happy with no care in the world. He lived from moment to moment. Just trying to be happy. When all the guys were together there was never a dull moment. Still never is, but it's not quite the same. Something was always happening, there's always someone to watch. Whether it's Johnny and Mike doing the "dice dance", or Fro making fun of someone, or Greg trying to make a fire, which by the
way no one has been able to make a fire quite like Harley could. Reguardless, the guys have not been the same since Harley passed. Now the room just gets quiet and someone will drop their head to cry, another will just leave the room. I have never seen any of these boys cry and I've known them awhile. That just goes to show how much Harley meant to them. No one has been the same since he passed. And I don't blame them for that because it's like a piece of all of us died too. Harley is always in the back of my mind. And I drive myself crazy thinking about him, and why these things happen to good people.
But I don't want him to leave my mind because I'm afraid I'll forget something about him. May it be his sinister smile, his good nature, or the good ol' times with the guys, we all love him and miss him dearly. He touched so many peoples lives just by making them smile. Making that one persons day just a little bit easier, with a simple smile. And we have his parents and friends to thank for that.
Every moment Harley experienced, he shared with his younger brother and friends. I have never seen two brothers so close together as Harley and Johnny were. They could get in the biggest fight but they were over it in minutes telling each other that they loved one another. Those two would back each other up for anything. The rest of the guys were like their brothers too. His friends had such an impact on his life and who he became. That close group of friends he has meant so much to them...they were ALWAYS together and would do anything for one another. I for one would like to take this time to tahnk his friends and parents, Bev and stepfather Dan, for raising Harley to be such an outstanding guy. I know you all meant so much to Harley and no one can describe the pain you all feel through this tough time. But alwys remember that just because you can't see Harley everyday, doesn't mean he's not with you...He lives through you now! He lives through his friends too! Every moment you experience, he's with you. Bev, everytime you think of Harley, and his awesome personality and sense of humor, he's with you. And he always will be...He's gonna be there at every birthday and every Christmas and every Thanksgiving. Harley's gonna be there when Johnny and Nicole have their kids and even when they get married. Because he wouldn't miss those things for the world. I will never forget anything about Harley. I won't forget all the times he broke his glasses, or the huge fires he would make because he was such a pyro. I won't forget how many dents he put in his truck when he got mad. I won't forget the heart to heart talks. I won't forget any jokes, smiles, or tears.
But mostly, I won't ever forget all the great times he had with all his brothers. Because that's when he was his happiest!!
So please, anyone who knew Harley~"...make the best of this test and don't ask why. It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right...I hope you had the time of your life!"
Nicole Eck (Mdblg)
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This eulogy was written by Kayla Ferraer, a friend of Harley's. I also had this written on Harley's slab. Harley's brother Johnny and all of their mutual friends called Harley "H".
"H"
Harley was close to a lot of people.
In some way or another he made a difference in everyone's lives.
Without having to say a word, he could cheer you up at the worst of times.
His big, beautiful, warm-hearted smile made you feel as though time had stopped, and nothing else mattered at that exact moment.
He was the Life of the party.
Harley Walls was a true friend.
I know this because when he would reach for a hand, he would touch a Heart.
"H".....may the choir of Angels welcome you into an everlasting paradise.
We will always love you and you will never be forgotten.
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- Jan 30, 2011
- A beraved parents wishlist
♥ i wish my child hadn’t died. I wish i had my child back. ♥ i wish you wouldn’t be afraid to speak my child’s name. My child lived and was very important to me. I need to hear that my child was important to you also. ♥ if i cry and get emotional when you talk about my child, i wish you knew that it isn’t because you have hurt me. My child’s death is the cause of my tears. You have talked about my child and you have allowed me to share my grief. I thank you for both. ♥ being a bereaved parent is not contagious, so i wish you wouldn’t shy away from me. I need you now more than ever. ♥ i need diversions, so i do want to hear about you, but i also want you to hear about me. I might be sad and i might cry, but i wish you would let me talk about my child; my favourite topic of the day. ♥ i know that you think of and pray for me often. I also know that my child’s death pains you too. I wish you would let me know these things through a phone call, a card or note, or a real big hug. ♥ i wish you wouldn’t expect my grief to be over. The months/years are traumatic for me, but i wish you could understand that my grief will never be over. I will suffer the death of my child until the day i die. ♥ i am working hard in my recovery, but i wish you could understand that i will never fully recover. I will always miss my child and i will always grieve that my child is gone. ♥ i wish you wouldn’t expect me “not to think about it” or “be happy”. Neither will happen for a very long time, so don’t frustrate yourself. ♥ i don’t want to have a “pity party”, but i do wish you would let me grieve. I must hurt before i can heal. ♥ i wish you understood how my life has shattered. I know it is miserable for you to be around me when i’m feeling miserable. Please be as patient with me as i am with you. ♥ when i say, “i’m doing okay”, i wish you could understand that i don’t “feel” okay and that i struggle daily. ♥ i wish you knew that all of the grief reactions i’m having are very normal. Depression, anger, hopelessness and overwhelming sadness are all to be expected. So please excuse me when i’m quiet and withdrawn or irritable and cranky. ♥ your advice to “take it one day at a time” is excellent advice. However, a day is too much and too fast for me right now. I wish you could understand that i’m doing good to handle an hour at a time. ♥ please excuse me if i seem rude, it’s certainly not my intent. Sometimes the world around me goes too fast and i need to get off. When i walk away, i wish you would let me find a quiet place to spend time alone. ♥ i wish you understood that grief changes people. When my child died, a big part of me died too. I am not the same person i was before my child died and i will never be that person ever again. ♥ i wish my child hadn’t died. I wish i had my child back. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Oct 20, 2010
- Beautiful memorial for your son harley. I to lost my son almost 5 years ago in a car accident, our sons had alot in common, both very handsom, and both wore ball caps always. I never had any closure after my son passed away, due to extreme head trauma, they wouldn't allow me to see him. I know your pain, & i am so sorry. They say time heals all wounds, but i beg to differ with them. There isnt anything anyone can say or do, to ease it. Once again, i am sincerely sorry for your loss. Rip harley. You were loved & are missed by so many.
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- Jul 01, 2010
- ♥my sweet harley♥
it has been awhile since i have written to you, it is very hard to have to come to a memorial website to visit your child. My heart is so heavy with pain and emptiness. Your friend, roach stopped by to visit us, have not seen him in about 6 years. He talked about the all the great times all you boys had and what an impression and how much of a difference that you made in his life. I am truly happy that you had so much fun in your young life, you have family and friends that truly love you. You are missed every minute of every day. I realize that i could have lost 2 sons that horrible night and i am thankful that god has given me 2 grandkids, but i feel that my heart will never truly be at peace until the day i can see you. The pain of losing a child is unbearable, the emptiness and loneliness never leaves and unless a parent loses their child no one knows what kind of pain it is. Goodnight and sweet dreams my precious harley. I love you and miss you every minute of every day. Love momma
xoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 08, 2010
- ♥my precious son♥
today is your angelversary day. Dan and i went to the cemetery and i took you some beautiful roses, and a little bear a card and a play cell phone. Johnny, keri, greg and his girlfriend went out later this evening. I never, ever thought that i would ever have to go visit 1 of my children in a cemetery. "the worse loss in life is the loss of a child. "
harley, my heart has a hole in it that can never be mended till i see you again and i have an emptiness in me that never goes away. I feel that i was cheated, i wanted to be able to see you get married and have children and grow older. The pain of losing you is unbearable. Harley, you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. I luv n miss you every minute of every day. Goodnight and sweet dreams
love, momma
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Dec 25, 2009
- Beverly my heart is with you this christmas and merry christmas to our angels in heaven. Justin golden and harley wells.
- - robin bell
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- Dec 22, 2009
- ♥happy 27th birthday in heaven, my sweet harley♥
my mind is remembering past b'days and i'm so sad and depressed that you are not here to celebrate your birthday, 27 years ago today you were born and i was the happiest woman in the world, i never, ever thought that i would have to bury you before myself. The pain is unbearable and the emptiness never leaves me. Dan and i took you some balloons and flowers and a birthday card and johnny and keri went to visit you, nicole and rick will go see you christmas day. I love and miss you every mintue of every day and i will see you again when god calls me home and what a glorious day that will be. So many of your friends are up there with you and i know that all your friends gave you a great b-day party. Love,momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxxo
ilu♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Sep 25, 2009
- I just want to let you know what a beautiful memorial this is and what a handsome guy harley was. You must have been very proud of him. I lost my older brother five years ago in a car accident. Harley and steffan were around the same age. People so young should never be taken, and the hearts of the living never heal, we just keep going. Stay strong and remember how much he loved you. That kind of love can never die.
- - Nikki Pratt
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- Jun 19, 2009
- Thank you so much for your kind & heartfelt words. Only someone who has lost a child truly understands the pain we endure on a daily basis. Harley looks like he was a great person and loved by many. May you find some comfort in your memories and in the knowledge that we will see our sons again someday. Gregory's mom.
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- Jun 01, 2009
- Ms beverley my aches for and for harley thank you so much for your words and harley and justin were our sons on earth now his angels in heaven and i hope they are friends then they will never be alone much love and prayers to you justins mom. Robin bell.
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- Feb 01, 2009
- Thank you so much beverly, for your message on my husband ken mcclung's page. This page that you made for harley is very beautiful. I think you are right & i bet you that ken & harley are friends now, because they seem alot alike. We are very lucky to have had them in our lives, and harley is so lucky to have you for his mom. I know he wants you to shine.
- - Barbara Lannigan
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- Dec 30, 2008
- Sweet harley,
christmas has passed by 5 years without you, your birthday has passed by 5 years without you and soon it will be 5 years that god called you home. My precious son, my heart is forever broken that you are not here with us. The pain, heartache and emptiness never goes away, my arms ache to hold you, my lips long to kiss you and my eyes long to see your beautiful smile. These holidays are very depressing, a parent never get's over losing their child, we just have to keep going until the day that we will be reunited. Missing you every minute of every day. I love you harley
love, momma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Dec 22, 2008
- ♥happy 26th birthday in heaven my sweet harley♥
i went to visit you today and took you 26 balloons and a birthday card. I also took your christmas stocking and some decorations out to the cemetery. Johnny and his little boy ayden harley also went to visit you, along with nicole and her husband rick and their little boy ricky♥
you have been an uncle for almost 2 years now♥
johnny and fro and greg and your friends will all go back out to see you later this evening♥
dan & i got out there really early and it was so cold, my hands were so cold and were hurting really bad♥
i know that you are going to have a really great party up there and garrett will be there, along with robert utech, luke johns and bryan rollyson♥
why do so many of our children have to go before us?
the pain, heartache and emptiness never goes away, i want so much to see your beautiful smile, hug you and kiss you♥
as each day that passes brings me 1 day closer to seeing you♥
harley, so many young people have lost their lives due to different reasons and there is no pain worse than losing a child, we just have to wait till god calls us home and we will all be reunited with our children♥
i love and miss you every minute of every day, you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart♥♥♥
hugs n kisses to you my sweet son♥
love, momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Aug 30, 2008
- Thank you or leaving such a nice message on my son kevin burtis site. On;y pne who has lost a child can understand what we go threw everyday. My prayers are with you and your family god bless you !! carroll, kevins mom.
- - Carroll Pilon
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- Aug 03, 2008
- My heart hurts for you. I know what you're feeling in a way. I lost my dad not a child. I try being strong, but have break downs beacuse i wished my dad were here. Here to see my baby, how much i have grown etc etc. I has just turned 18 and he died 2 days later and my sister had a baby the same night he died. So i try being strong because i know he would not want me to be down and sad. God bless harley. He is now in a better place looking down on everyone he knew. R. I. P you are missed so much.
- - kristen brogdon
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- Jun 26, 2008
- Sweet son of mine,
it has been awhile since i have written you on this site, i have been trying to figure out how to put music on your other site. I miss you every minute of every day, there are so many parent's that have lost a child or children, my heart just aches for them. The death of a child is just devastating and a parent never gets over it, we have to learn how to keep on living without our child. I will be reunited with you when god calls me home and oh what a glorious day that will be. Amanda sarver had a little boy and she called him harley, i feel very honored and proud, she lives in texas with her husband, if she lived here and i could see her baby i don't think i could call him harley, i would have to say little baby boy, it would be to painful for me to come right out and call him harley. My eyes long to see you, my arms ache to hold you and my lips want to kiss you. Sweet child of mine, i'm thankful that you were in our lives for 21 years and my heart is broken that you are not here with us. Your love, life and memory will forever live on in the hearts and souls of all that know and love you. You are always with me for you are "my flesh and blood. "
you are a part of me, you are my son. ♥i love you and miss you every minute of every day♥
love, momma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- May 14, 2008
- ♥goodnight n sweet dreams my precious son♥ you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. My heart is forever broken, there is no greater pain than the loss of a child. I love you and miss you every second of every day. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxoxo.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- May 10, 2008
- ♥sweet harley♥ tomorrow is mother's day and i am heartbroken that you are not here with me. I will always treasure and cherish the mother's day gifts you made me when you were a little boy in school. I miss you every second of every day, you are always with me and i will be reunited with you when god calls me home. I love you my precious son,
love, momma xoxoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Apr 21, 2008
- ♥sweet harley♥missing and loving you every second of every day. Time moves on as time does, but my time is frozen back to february 8, 2004 the night that god called you home. I have always believed that god has a plan for our lives, but it is so hard to understand that when a parent loses their child, no matter what age their child is. And what about the evil people in this world? why do they get to live and keep on being evil. Life is cruel and unfair. Your life was just beginning and had so much to live for. You will 4 ever live on in the hearts and souls of all that know and love you. I was very much honored that amanda sarver named her little boy harley. I will go for now sweet harley and one day i will be reunited with you
until then. Know that you are always with me for you are a part of me, you are my flesh and blood. I ♥♥♥♥♥♥ u
love,momma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Apr 03, 2008
- Goodnight n sweet dreams ♥my sweet harley♥please come to me in my dreams, missing you n loving you every second of every day. Love, momma xoxoxox.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Mar 27, 2008
- ♥my sweet harley♥
how do i begin to tell you the pain and heartache and the loneliness that i have in my heart every second of every day because you are not here. Why does god take our children? we expect our parent's and grandparent's and old people to die. But why do us parent's have to live the rest of our lives without our precious children?
my eyes want to see you, my arms want to hold you and my lips want to kiss you goodnight, i can not do any of these things anymore, i can only look at your pictures and i have my memories of our lives together. My precious son, you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. I miss you and ♥♥♥♥ you every second of every day. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Mar 09, 2008
- ♥my sweet son♥missing you every second of every day, my heart is so broken and i have asked god so many times why he had to take you, you were just 21 and had so much living left to do, my life was half over and i would have gladly gone in your place. A mother should never have to bury her child first. I want so much to see you, hold you, kiss you and just look at your beautiful smile. I have 21 years of memories in my mind but i am selfish i wanted more, i wanted to see you get married and have children and just grow old. I♥♥♥u and miss you every second of every day. Love, momma xoxoxoxox.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 26, 2008
- Goodnight and sweet dreams my sweet harley, please come to me in my dreams, i want so much to see you, hug you kiss you and look at your beautiful smile. I love you and miss you every second of every day. Love,momma xoxoxoxoxox.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 25, 2008
- A mother's hope
i hoped it was a mistake. I hoped he would come back. I hoped for acceptance. I hoped for peace. I hoped this feeling would go away. I hoped for reprieve. When my so died, i hoped it was a mistake. It was not
i hoped it was a dream. It was not. Before my son died, i hoped for enough time in the day to clean my home, provide my family with clean laundry, taxi service and healthy meals. I loved dinner time with my family. After my son died i didn't know what day it was. Cleaning our home or doing laundry were things i no longer thought of. I did not cook; i did not shop for food; i did not eat. I hoped he would come back. He did not. I hoped i would gain understanding. I did not. I couldn't understand how i could wake up on a perfectly normal morning, and my son was gone from his room, gone from our home and gone from our lives. I hoped for acceptance. I found none. I hoped those around me would understand me. They did not. How could they understand me? my son was dead. They could not have any way to understand unless they had also lost a child. How could my beautiful,vibrant,healthy son be gone?
i hoped for peace. I had none. I hoped for sleep. I had none. I hoped for courage to resume my daily life. My life was out of control. The only thing i was sure of in the early days of my grief was that our lives would never be the same again. I had hoped this empty feeling would go away. It did not. I had hoped that some day my family would be normal again. We were not. I hoped i could stop looking for our son in every young man i saw that was tall, a little chunky and had brown hair. I could not. I hoped that i could become the parent to my surviving children that i knew they deserved. I could not. I knew how much they were hurting, but i could not help myself and i could not help my children. My younger son need my comfort,my only daughter needed my comfort. I was their mother but their was no comfort in me to give. I hoped i could be a wife to my husband. I could not. I never hope for laughter. How could i laugh when my son was dead?
i hoped the feelings that consumed me every waking moment would somehow change so i would not feel as though i could never again be in a public place without crying. We all have a future; we have memories. No matter how long our children were part of our lives, we have memories. When my son was a baby,a toddler,a young child,a teenager and young man, i watched over him. I thought i could watch over him for my entire life. But i was wrong. I hope with all my heart that now he is watching over me. I know my joy will never change every time i think of my son, share a memory with someone or look at pictures of him. My hope as a mother is that we all will find peace and cherish the joy our children have brought to our lives. Written by a grieving mother. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 25, 2008
- Goodnight n sweet dreams my sweet harley, another miserable day has gone by. My arms ache to hug you, no parent should have to bury their child, my heart is forever broken. I love you and miss you every second of every day. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxox.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 18, 2008
- ♥my sweet son♥
missing you every second of every day. Life has been hell down here without you. I love you son and one day i will be reunited with you. Love, momma xoxoxxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 14, 2008
- ♥happy valentine's day in heaven my sweet son♥i love n miss you every second of every day♥you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart♥♥♥
i love you son♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 11, 2008
- ♥goodnight n sweet dreams my sweet harley♥
i♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥u
love,momma xoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Feb 09, 2008
- My sweet son,
it was 4 years yesterday that you died and our lives were shattered, life as we knew it to be would never be the same and a part of me died with you. "the worse loss in life is the loss of a child. "
we as parent's never,ever expect to bury our child. I have to be strong for johnny and nicole as they need me, but i will always wish that god would have taken my life instead of your's. Harley, your life was just beginning and you had so much living left to do. It is very hard for me to accept that this was god's plan, that you fullfilled your time here on earth. I want so very much to see you, hug you, kiss you and see your beautiful smile, but i will have to wait until god calls me home. I know that you have a lot of angel friends up there and that you also are hangin out with garrett and we will all be reunited one day. I love and miss you every second of every day my son
love, momma xoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Dec 08, 2007
- My sweet harley, your birthday and christmas will be here soon and my heart is hurting because you are not here with us. Life is cruel. Why does god take our children when there are so many evil people left here? you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. I love and miss you every minute of every day. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxox.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Nov 27, 2007
- My precious harley , the night you died a part of all of us died with you. Please watch over johnny, he is so young and can't find the strength to cope with losing his big brother. You two were inseperable and he feels so all alone. Please guide him on his journey through his life. I love and miss you every minute of every day. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxxoxoxox.
- - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Nov 11, 2007
- Goodnight & sweet dreams my sweet harley,
i want so much to see your beautiful smile, hug you and kiss you. I have 21 years of beautiful memories in my head and heart, but i wanted so many more years. My heart is forever broken, when you died a part of me also died. I love you sweetheart. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Nov 08, 2007
- My precious son,
you are loved and missed every minute of every day, you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. Why did god have to take you? why not me? your life was just beginning and you had so much living left to do. Goodnight and sweet dreams my sweet harley. Love, momma xoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Jul 31, 2007
- My thoughts are always with you and you are forever in my heart. I love and miss you every minute of every day. Love,momma xoxoxoxoxoxoxox.
- - anonymous
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- Jul 27, 2007
- Sorry for your loss.
- - anonymous
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- Jul 21, 2007
- I want so much to hug you, kiss you and to see your beautiful smile. We as parent's never, ever expect to have to bury our children first. I can expect my grandparent's death, i can expect my parent's death, but i am your mother and i'm a lot older, god should have taken me first. Your life was just beginning, you had so much living left to do. Son, i love and miss you every minute of every day. Love,momma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Jul 17, 2007
- I hoped it was a mistake. I hoped he would come back. I hoped for acceptance. I hoped for peace. I hoped this feeling would go away. I hoped for reprieve. When my son died, i hoped it was a mistake. It was not
i hoped it was a dream. It was not. Before my son died, i hoped for enough time in the day to clean my home, provide my family with clean laundry, taxi service and healthy meals. I loved dinner time with my family. After my son died i didn't know what day it was. Cleaning our home or doing laundry were things i no longer thought of. I did not cook; i did not shop for food; i did not eat. I hoped he would come back. He did not. I hoped i would gain understanding. I did not. I couldn't understand how i could wake up on a perfectly normal morning, and my son was gone from his room, gone from our home and gone from our lives. I hoped for acceptance. I found none. I hoped those around me would understand me. They did not. How could they understand me? my son was dead. They could not have any way to understand unless they had also lost a child. How could my beautiful,vibrant,healthy son be gone?
i hoped for peace. I had none. I hoped for sleep. I had none. I hoped for courage to resume my daily life. My life was out of control. The only thing i was sure of in the early days of my grief was that our lives would never be the same again. I had hoped this empty feeling would go away. It did not. I had hoped that some day my family would be normal again. We were not. I hoped i could stop looking for our son in every young man i saw that was tall, a little chunky and had brown hair. I could not. I hoped that i could become the parent to my surviving children that i knew they deserved. I could not. I knew how much they were hurting, but i could not help myself and i could not help my children. My younger son need my comfort,my only daughter needed my comfort. I was their mother but their was no comfort in me to give. I hoped i could be a wife to my husband. I could not. I never hope for laughter. How could i laugh when my son was dead?
i hoped the feelings that consumed me every waking moment would somehow change so i would not feel as though i could never again be in a public place without crying. We all have a future; we have memories. No matter how long our children were part of our lives, we have memories. When my son was a baby,a toddler,a young child,a teenager and young man, i watched over him. I thought i could watch over him for my entire life. But i was wrong. I hope with all my heart that now he is watching over me. I know my joy will never change every time i think of my son, share a memory with someone or look at pictures of him. My hope as a mother is that we all will find peace and cherish the joy our children have brought to our lives. Written by a grieving mother. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Jul 15, 2007
- My precious son,
everyday life is such a struggle because you are not here with us. The pain is unbearable and some days i feel like i am just going to go crazy. I want so much to see you, hug you, and kiss you. I always ask why? why?
you are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. I love and miss you every minute of every day my sweet harley
love, momma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Jul 15, 2007
- Please come to me in my dreams, let me feel your presence. Please watch over johnny as he needs your guidance as he continues on his journey to life. He has been on the self-destructive path, please watch over him. I have lost one son, i can't lose another. I love you harley and will see you again one day and oh what a glorious and long awaited day that will be. Love, momma
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Jul 12, 2007
- With the rustle of wings
ill take your memories along
as i soar up to the heavens
from where they just played that song. Just part your hands open
as you feel my beating heart. My soul is alive as i
now depart. With the rustle of wings,
ill enter the pearly gates. Ill be with family from long ago and
for you i will wait. Always keep this feather close
as a reminder of my souls release
and in every whisper of the wind youll hear
the rustle of my wings. . - - anonymous
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- Jun 22, 2007
- I no i didnt no harley that well but i loved him. Love your step nefew d. J. Boree.
- - anonymous
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- Jun 13, 2007
- My sweet harley,
the night you died, a part of me died with you, your life was just beginning, why did god have to take you home? i am so thankful that god let us have you for 21 years, but i am selfish, i wanted you longer. I have a hole in my heart that can never be mended and an emptiness that never goes away. A parent should not have to outlive their child, there is no greater pain than losing a child. You were such a loving, gentle, compassionate young man. I am always asking god why you? why not me?
i will never get to see you get married and have children, i will never get to see you grow old. My heart is forever broken. Johnny misses you every minute of every day, please pray for him and guide him on his journey thru life, he is hurting, you two were never apart from each other in 19 years, a part of him also died the night you passed away and he did not care if he lived or died, so please watch over him for me, i can not lose another child. I am going to go for now my sweet harley, so know that you are always with me, you are "my flesh and blood. "
i love and miss you every minute of every day. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Jun 07, 2007
- My precious son,
i love you and miss you every minute of every day. You are always in my thoughts and forever in my heart. Xoxoxoxo. - - Beverly Walls Johns
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- Apr 24, 2007
- May god comfort you.
- - anonymous
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- Feb 28, 2007
- I am so sorry of your lost i know how you feel i just lost my son 5 months ago to a car accident on i95 which the driver and passenger died which was my son. He also was 20 going on 21 the same month he was killed was his birthday. I dont know what to tell you to make feel better cause there not i know that. But just hang in there with god help and i am sorry for your lost,much luv for you and your family peace!!! rip harley wall,you are love by many and missed but will never be forgotten!!!!!!!!!
- - anonymous
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